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Saturday, April 21, 2012

Princess and I: Episode 05


From last episode, culprit guy confesses everything to Dasho Kencho out of guilt.
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Behati overhears everything and offers her two cents: the man is obviously crazy and shouldn't be listened to. However, Dasho Kencho believes that they shouldn't just dismiss it and decides to have it investigated immediately, but decides to withhold the information from the king. Sinners should be punished, he says.

Meanwhile, Mikay's adoption papers have just arrived. Apparently her little dialogue earlier really did mean that she wasn't their child yet, legally. Dad Dinoy celebrates because Mikay can finally be part of their family officially.

Back in Yangdon, Ashi Behati lays restless in bed. Dasho Kencho's words echo in her head. To prevent her scheme from being found out, she poisons Dasho Kencho and the secret dies with him forever. She spreads his ashes and cries a couple of tears. Okay, moving on to phase two of evil plan then.

Kiko and Mikay now sit in a field. They both try out his invention and Mikay tries to contact her parents. She looks to the stars and tells them that she's A-okay and that she has good friends. Aww.

They're all grown up now, and Kiko and Mikay discovers that they are both accepted in the courses that they applied for. Later, Mikay invites stepmom and her sisters to her graduation. Older bratty stepsister says she has a pageant that same night, aka they're not going to make it. On purpose. Mikay leaves a little sad but is comforted by Kiko. While looking for a gift, Mikay enters a raffle with trips as prizes.

Jao delivers his valectory speech and the King congratulates him for his achievements. A random citizen also congratulates Jao, saying that she had heard from Behati earlier that the King has finally chosen him from the throne. But the King hasn't really said anything, which leaves Jao confused. The King overhears this and leaves with a look of.. dissatisfaction.

Mikay wanders alone in a sea of white togas. Earlier, her Dad promises that he will be there, and soon. Her stepmother and sisters are too busy attending older bratty sister's pageant. The latter persuades her mother to skip Mikay's graduation and stay for her pageant instead. Despite their youngest sister's point that Mikay's graduation doesn't come as often as older bratty stepsister's pageants, they skip Mikay's graduation nonetheless. Ugh, Bianca's not even pageant material. She's pretty, but she's definitely not a beauty queen. She's also a snotty, fussy bitch.

Meanwhile King Anand confronts Behati for spreading the rumor. Behati denies starting it and declares that she has no right to say so. The King reminds her that his daughter the Princess will come back and Behati agrees, but she does not forget to remind the King that talks among the people occur because they worry about the Kingdom.

The graduation and the pageant start at the same time, and Mikay notices that her family, especially her father, still hasn't arrived. Bad luck strikes and Dad suffers a heart attack on his way to her graduation. Mikay cries a little as her name is called and there's no one to accompany her up the stage, until Kiko calls for his mom to go with Mikay. Aww. Too bad 'cause she's probably going to break your heart later.

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Friday, April 20, 2012

Princess and I: Episode 04


This episode we're introduced to more characters. Yay!
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The Philippines' Cultural Attache to Yangdon is introduced to the King. Alice (Marina Benipayo) introduces herself as well as her husband Edward (Jong Cuenco) and son Gino (Daniel Padilla).

There's a new kid in Mikay's block. She calls him but he runs off to his aunties. Mikay envies this sight of the little boy being extremely cared for.

As they settle in Yangdon, Gino starts school with Dasho Kencho's son Jao. Gino observes the special treatment Jao gets in school and shakes his head.

At Mikay's, stepmom preps older bratty sister (sometimes antagonists don't deserve names! muahaha) for a pageant. Mikay asks if she can come but stepmom denies because someone has to take care of the house while they're gone. Older bratty sister further mocks Mikay and tells her that ugly people aren't allowed to attend pageants but Mikay simply laughs it off. Home alone, she mimics her sister's introduction for the pageant and focuses on chomping her dinner instead.

In the Yangdon school, Gino gets told off for involuntarily yawning while Jao performs his flute piece. Gino approaches Jao after class and wonders how lonely it must be for the young royalty. Jao replies, "You don't understand, you will not be King one day. I am!," to which Gino rebutts, "Even if I will not be King, at least I still have friends" and storms off. Jao follows suit and they climb a huge wall, from which he suffers a minor fall. On the other side of the wall, he finds a bunch of farmer kids playing happily. He and Gino joins them and they fly a kite.

Mikay spots the new kid again and asks him what he's burying. He tells her he's experimenting and explains her what it's for. Mikay asks about his experiment, but he says it's top secret. He shows her a device instead - two cans connected by a string which functions like a short-distance telephone. She was telling him how amazing it is when Kiko (Khalil Ramos) (yes that's the kid's name) gets called by his mom.

Mikay visits the carnival with the rest of the family (apparently this was the little excursion they were talking about in the previous episodes) and they decide to ride the ferris wheel. Unfortunately, the ride couldn't fit five people in so they had to leave Mikay. Dad decides to stay with her but Mikay persuades him to take the ride instead. As the ride goes up and far, little Mikay sheds a tear. Awww. They could've divided into two groups, seriously. I hate forced situations like this.

At home, Mikay shows Dad a drawing of their family. It's the typical stick family drawing, except she's alone and the rest of the family is together. She thanks her Dad for the wonderful day at the carnival, and to make her feel better, Dad invites her to a trip with him.

Back in Yangdon, Behati scolds Jao and tells him that he shouldn't play with the farmers' children. Jao even relates that no one wants to play with him. Behati explains that his archery, horse-riding and flute lessons as well as his fluency in English is more than enough to compensate for his friendlessness. Um, so much for bringing up your kid right.

As promised, Dad brings Mikay along his service duties. She cheerfully talks to the italians and is amazed that Ciao can be used for both "hello" and "goodbye." They drop by a tourist spot and Mikay dreams of traveling the Philippines as well as abroad. She and her Father then makes a promise to travel the world together as soon as they are able to get by.

Despite his mother's disapproval, Jao continues to play and enjoy with the other kids. The King sees him and asks if his mother knows about it. Jao immediately confesses that he skipped school without their knowledge because they would never allow it. The King invites him for a walk. Jao explains that he feels quite ordinary whenever he plays with kids of the farmers. The King tells Jao that he reminds him of his younger self, as well as his daughter Areeyah. If she were here, she would've been his age. With that, he sends him back to school.

Mikay finds Kiko experimenting again, so she climbs their gate and tricks Kiko with an ice candy into telling her. They introduce themselves to each other as Martin Nicolas Salamat and Maria Mikaela Maghirang. They agree that they're officially friends from now on.

Jao invites Gino to go play with him and the other kids again, but realizes that he can't because Behati will not approve of it. Gino keeps on responding in Filipino so Jao proposes that Gino teach him Filipino so he could understand.

Apparently, Kiko's invention was for communicating to his dead father. At first Mikay doubts if the invention would work, but she decided to believe to boost her friend's mood.

Jao and Gino is in trouble for going home late. Gino gets expelled for "compromising" Jao's security. Despite Jao's confession, the principal stands by her word. We have a little peek at Gino's parentals arguing about their responsibilities to their son and Gino overhears. Looks like this little guy's lonely too?

Meanwhile, totally out of nowhere, culprit guy (the assassin hired to kill the Queen and the Princess) has requested an urgent meeting with Dasho Kencho. He reveals everything to the vice king: the Queen's tragedy wasn't an accident, and a woman who claims to be from Yangdon had paid him to kill, but she herself appears to be an underling of someone else. Unfortunately, Ashi Behati overhears everything from a distance. Typical eavesdropping flaw in Filipino dramas: she's extremely near but no one notices her. Man, when will people ever learn?

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Thursday, April 19, 2012

Princess and I: Episode 03


Picking up where we left off, the King arrives just in time to hear Behati's suggestion to the council.

"If you weren't trying to dethrone me, what were you suggesting?" the King says. Behati, of course, denies.

Dino tries to woo his wife into adopting the child. She ponders if she could ever love that child, to which Dino replies with "if you could love someone like me, you'd learn to love her too." After they've gone to sleep, Stella wakes up to the baby's crying. She finally agrees to adopt Areeyah. Hurray, I guess.

Meanwhile, the King is also awoken from his slumber. He calls for Princess Areeyah and stares outside his bedroom window.

As for Esme, she finally retrieves her things along with a letter from Madam Yin. The latter reiterates that she does not want to hear from Esme ever again. Shaken by guilt, Esme is comforted by her mother, telling her that Madam Yin obviously does not care about the child and that she shouldn't worry about it either.

In Madam Yin's end, culprit guy (the man who was hired to kill the Queen and the Princess) seeks Madam Yin out of guilt. He tells her that he dreams of the Princess frequently. Yin dismisses him by telling him that she had gotten rid of her (but not rid as in killed).

In the palace, a Drukpah member reminds the King of his responsibilities as well as the talk among the commonfolk. He also wonders about the next of kin - who will inherit when the King has no other child? The King replies that his daughter, the Princess, will come back. However, he worries that he might not last long before the princess comes back.

A flying kite soars high, signaling the time lapse to a kid-version of Areeyah selling ice candy. She encounters a few kids playing roulette and challenges her luck. She wins a dyed baby chick. On her way home, she frees a kite stuck on some wires on a wall. Her stepmother calls her Mikay (her new Filipino name, which we'll use from now on). As she was too busy untangling the kite, the roulette kids from earlier steal some of her ice candy.

Back to the Drukpah, the member convenes regarding possible choices for the King's new wife. They recall how the King has never approved of any of the council's choices, particularly those of Yangdon kin. Although they try to understand King Anand's love for Queen Isabel, they argue that his responsibility to the kingdom is first, and that he should pick an heir to the throne immediately. Ashi Behati overhears and leaves with an evil scheming smirk. Poor King, people won't even cut him some slack.

In the Maghirang household (Mikay's family), Stella scolds Mikay for losing earnings and playing too much. Oh and also, stepmom hates colored poultry; she tells Mikay to get rid of it. Older stepsister Bianca butts in telling her she deserve every bit of it, that she's ugly, then walks away and irks at the "disgusting" chick. If I didn't know better, too much chick exposure probably means they're gonna kill it or something later.

Anyway, Behati checks on her only son, Jao, and tells him to get ready for the King's birthday. Today, get the King to like the little boy. Tomorrow, get the King to sit the little boy on the throne.

Back to the Filipino household, Stella rehearses Bianca for a pageant. Dad had just come back from work and he's bought them goodies. Old stepsister Bianca shares it with their youngest, Dindi and leaves Mikay none. The latter tells her father that she's okay, they like it better anyway. Um, okay.

As for the King's birthday "celebration", Behati tries to lift everyone's spirits up (but not really, she just wants to squeeze in her son's performance) by calling her son in front. Sadly, the boy fails to finish his flute piece which disappoints Behati immensely. Something tells me the kid's getting more than the evil glare. And he does, because Behati scolds him not long after. Aww, cut the kid some slack.

The Maghirangs (Mikay's family if you haven't been keeping up with their identifiers) plan for a family trip over dinner, but Bianca wants to leave Mikay out because of the incident earlier. Am I the only one wondering why her brattiness is tolerated in their household?

Apparently not! After dinner, Mikay overhears her parents' argument: Stepmom thinks that Dad favors Mikay too much, and that they should definitely get rid of the baby chick. Dad defends Mikay all the way. Awesome, possum. Go Dad!

Long after the King's birthday celeb has ended, Little Jao makes a little speech and fakes perform for himself in the courtyard. The King witnesses this and claps in admiration.

Mikay finally decides to free her pink chick, warning it to be careful of cats and stuff. Dad finds her and invites her to their little family excursion. Mikay replies that she couldn't because she still has ice candies to sell. Dad tells her that she doesn't have to sell them anyway, to which she answers with something like, "but I can't do anything else, I can't join pageants unlike Bianca because I'm ugly." Of course Dad is quick to disagree and tells her she's quite cute. Mikay thanks him for taking her into the family and not throwing her away. Dad replies, "Why would I? We're family. We'll always be." Awww. As he carries her inside she looks back - she smiles gladly at the sight of someone "adopting" the baby chick she just freed. Oh, okay. I really thought they were going to run over it or something, lol.

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Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Princess and I: Episode 02


The King's remaining convoy stops in the road where the landslide had happened. The Queen's car nowhere in sight, King Anand commands his men to look for them. Actually, this would be the only thing the King would be doing for the rest of the episode, lol.

Further down the landslide is the fatally injured Queen Isabel with Princess Areeyah in her arms. The culprit, responsible for the bombing previously, approaches them and takes out a dagger. Obviously the guy was supposed to kill them both and not just put them in danger. While the mother whimpers for the safety of ther baby, our guy thinks twice. Typical guilty conscience scene. Anyway we know he's not going to do it because of the endless teasers with the grown Princess Areeyah/Mikay.

We're now transferred to a hut somewhere in the forest. Culprit guy now talks to Yin, Behati's handmaid, without the mysterious black cloak/hood/whatever unlike earlier. He tells her that he's done "the task" and she praises and pays him for it. She tells him that he should remember how he had played a huge role for the "betterment of the kingdom" and that he should immediately burn the hut after the rain wanes. She was about to exit when she suddenly hears a baby's cry. Good job hiding the baby, culprit guy. Now she's going to have you kill it.

Finally, the King finds his wife, and he holds her lifeless in his arms. Soon enough, he realizes his baby princess is nowhere near and commands his men to continue looking for her.

Back to the hut, Yin tells culprit guy off for not finishing his job thoroughly. He hands her the baby and challenges her to do it herself if she could. "I've participated enough," he says as he storms off. As expected, she tries to stab the poor little baby but couldn't. Honestly, where's this coming from? Where were your conscience earlier?

So Yin heads home and shouts to her own maid. Interesting, royal maids have their own attendants. Anyway, they talk in English which makes us assume that her attendant is a foreigner - which, quite frankly, is hard to tell since they're all Filipinos playing, er, Yangdoners(?) and Filipinos all the same. Anyway royal handmaid asks Esme (the Filipino attendant) regarding her previous request to go back to her country. The maid replies with of course, she still wants to, and Yin tells her to go and that she will pay for everything with extra and with one condition: to bring the baby with her and to never come back. Yin's sudden approval and the unusual condition arouses Esme's curiosity. Yin brushes her off and tells her to just do as she's told, but Esme now thinks twice because she doesn't want to get caught. However, Yin convinces her by playing the don't-you-miss-your-daughter-back-home card and Esme finally agrees. Immediately Esme is escorted to a private plane and is sent back to the Philippines.

Back in the palace, the king stares at the royal family portrait in deep thought. He recalls his dead wife and calls out for his missing daughter in tears. Later, he spreads his wife's ashes in the river that runs through the whole kingdom and vows to never stop looking for their child. Looking from afar is Ashi Behati.

Esme has arrived in the Philippines and her daughter greets her in surprise. She also asks who the baby is, but Esme denies her a reply.

Meanwhile, the King's officials apologize for not finding the princess in the forest. They infer that the baby must've been taken away by wild animals that night. The King, however, does not waver and still believes that his daughter is still alive. He travels to a temple in the mountains to clear his mind.

Unfortunately, the monks cannot fathom where the princess could be and they think that his daughter had already died. One monk consoles the King that the princess will be back, just like all things in this world that is resurrected. Okay, so much for encouragement, guys.

Back in the Philippines, Esme phones Madam Yin from a public telephone for her remaining luggage. She is quickly dismissed by Madam Yin's new maid while the latter listens in quietly.

Not too far away is Esme's daughter, Vicky, playing with little Areeyah, and is quickly enticed by balloons. Nearby, Dino (Dominic Ochoa) talks on his fone confirming a job offer while buying mangoes for his pregnant wife. Vicky carries little Areeyah and follows the balloon seller. Suddenly, a bomb explosion occurs in the area and separates the two kids. Esme panics and finds Vicky first, who was crying and apologizing for losing the other little girl. They look for her together amidst the panic and calls out for her. They haven't named her yet so they call out to her as "baby." Hahaha, no wonder you can't find her.

Anyway, Dino, the man on his fone earlier, does, while another explosion injures Esme. Dino carries little Areeyah to safety and Esme sees them. She tries to reach out to little Areeyah as her consciousness drifts away.

In Yangdon, Ashi Behati rewards Madam Yin the piece of land that the latter's been asking for, in return of her services and loyalty to their family. She reminds her that she will continue to receive such rewards if she remains loyal to Behati.

Back in the Philippines, Dino has taken the child home. He ponders that if not for the baby he might have died. It certainly didn't look that way, though? Anyway, he inquires at the police station if anyone's been looking for a lost child. The officer says no and suggests that the child be taken to DSWD.

A follow up to the police officer's suggestion earlier, a social worker checks up on little Areeyah and updates Dino on the state of orphanages. Not a lot of kids get adopted these days, she says, which makes Dino decide to adopt the child instead. His wife, Stella, disagrees but he argues that he feels the child will bring them good luck as it did to him. His wife argues back that they wouldn't have enough resources to care for three children; Dino replies that he snagged a new job anyway.

Meanwhile, Dasho Kencho updates Ashi Behati on the farmers' welfares that hasn't been taken care of lately. Behati asks why the King hasn't been attending to his duties and reminds Kencho that as a member of the Drukpah, they have the power to relieve the King of his throne. Dasho Kencho vehemently declines; he reminds Behati the she shouldn't have disloyal thoughts especially to the King. Good job, Kencho. How did he end up with such an evil woman for a wife, I wonder?

Anyway, Behati substitutes for Dasho Kencho in a council meeting. The King's absence was also noticed as of late since the tragic incident. Behati says that the King's condition lately has been unstable ever since. She suggests that the Drukpah should intervene, but she is cut off by the angry King - "What for? That I be dethroned?"

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Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Princess and I: Episode 01

Dundundun. The pilot wasn't that bad, really. I had actually anticipated watching it, especially after the suspense and the hype thanks to various media channels, haha. So anyway, here we go:



An eagle flies over the Yangdon Kingdom and leads us to Prince Anand (Albert Martinez) flying a kite with Isabel (Precious Lara Quigaman). The Prince suggests that they get more serious in their relationship, but Isabel fears what the Drukpah (the council of advisors) and the people might say, considering she’s a foreigner, an outsider, and he an heir to the throne. Prince Anand nevertheless assures her that only she will be his queen. Amidst their conversation, a messenger arrives; his presence is urgently requested by the sick King (Dante Rivero).


The Prince rides his bike back to the palace and quickly sits beside the sick King’s bed. The King whispers his only last wish-that he be a good and responsible King, bestows Prince Anand the crown and then passes away.


Meanwhile, Dasho Behati (Gretchen Barretto) gets off her car and proceeds to Isabel’s tent. The latter appears to be a volunteer doctor for the World Health Organization. Dasho Behati belittles her in Dzongkha which Isabel successfully deflects in Filipino. (This whole language thing is both confusing and frustrating for me, but we'll get to that later.) Suddenly, a bell echoes throughout the whole Kingdom which signals the King’s death.


Behati, now in her own room, is thankful that the King had finally died. Her own father’s death is shown in a flashback: as his dying wish, she promises that she will retrieve the throne that is rightfully theirs. Honestly, introducing the conflict this early? It's only been how many minutes, 10? Or probably less. A flashback is a very lazy and quite a cliched way of putting something onto the table.


Anyway, people have gathered in the courtyard and Dasho Kencho (Christian Vasquez) officially announces Anand’s Kingship. King Anand requests that his loyal subjects cooperate and promises that he will be a good ruler. Later, the Drukpah convenes regarding the King’s decision to wed Isabel – they are against the fact that, as Isabel has been worrying earlier, she is an outsider. The King argues that he will only wed the one he loves, and even cites Dasho Kencho’s union to Dasho Behati despite the latter’s lack of royal blood. So, does this mean she's changed her name before she got back into it? Sneaky, sneaky.


Anyway, the council agrees and the two finally wed. After the ceremony, the royal couple walks down the isle of people in celebration and Behati steps on Queen Isabel’s wedding gown trail. The latter just smiles it off while Behati pretends to clap for the newly-wed. Very mature move there, Behati.


The Queen bears a cute little daughter and officials come bearing gifts. Behati gives a handkerchief she has sewn herself. Talks among the crowd occur, and an advisor tells the King that giving a handkerchief is bad luck as it brings tears to the receiver. Of course Behati denies and tells the King that this was not her intention, and then leaves the room with an evil smirk.


While the King visits his subjects among the farm lands, the council convenes regarding the King’s achievements as of late. The King reports to his people that besides electricity and telecommunication, he also plans to install computers and internet. A subject suggests that the sudden influx of change and technology is unnecessary. Meanwhile, the council feels that the King’s knack for rule-bending has to be stopped. Behati provokes them to dethrone the King and start a revolution; such will put her husband Dasho Kencho on the throne. However, Dasho Kencho disagrees and believes that the King’s subjects should remain loyal. Kencho volunteers to talk to the liberal King instead.

Apparently, the King has arranged for a trip with the Queen and their daughter. Oh, goodie. One thing I've learned from watching dramas-unnecessary out-of-the-blue excursions always lead to something unpleasant. Then of course, they are made to take separate cars as part of security protocol, which, frankly, I don’t get. Meanwhile, a rendezvous between a hooded lady and a man happens in the forest-a paid assassination of the King’s family. On their way, the royal family encounters bad weather and decides to turn back for safety. Unfortunately it’s too late, the bomb has already been triggered and a landslide occurs obstructing the royal convoy and causing the Queen’s (and the Princess') car to fall off a cliff.

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Okay, hold on a sec while I take a breath. How can so much happen in a 30-minute episode? This feels like real-world one-week all squeezed in half an hour. Exhausting, but still leaves you with enough interest to sit in front of your telly and watch the next episode. Or so I'd like to think.

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Sunday, April 15, 2012

Recap and Review: Princess and I


For our first drama review ever, we've chosen ABS-CBN's Princess and I. This is actually pretty interesting in many ways because one, we're not big fans of Filipino dramas, ergo we're kinda treading into unknown (more like murky) waters, two, it's categorized as a historical rom-com which we don't get a lot from local TV, and three, its teasers give off that unique and high-budget feel. We'll see.

Writers
Jay Fernando, Andre Philip Loleng, Ceres Helga Barrios

Directors
Dado C. Lumibao, Francis Xavier Pasion

Synopsis
Princess and I follows the story of a young girl, Mikay Maghirang/Princess Areeyah (Kathryn Bernardo), the long-lost crown princess of the fictional Kingdom of Yangdon (based on real world Bhutan) and daughter of King Anand (Albert Martinez) and Queen Isabel (Precious Lara Quigaman). As a child, she was brought to Manila after Ashi Behati (Gretchen Barretto), an influential royal and wife to the vice-king, attempts to get rid of her and her mother in desire of the throne for her own son Prince Jao (Enrique Gil). Growing up as an adopted daughter of a poor family in the Philippines, she meets Kiko (Khalil Ramos) who becomes her best friend, and Gino (Daniel Padilla), an arrogant boy from a rich and influential family.

Despite the wealth and power entitled by the throne, the King is left with an empty space in his heart yet-to-be filled by his long-lost daughter Princess Areeyah, who will grow up in a challenging life without knowing who she really is. Princess and I is her journey, her search for her true identity and possibly finding love along the way.

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Recaps:
Episode 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10

Reviews:
Week 1 | 2

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Sunday, January 1, 2012

New Year, New Blog

“No epoch is purely good or purely evil. Good and evil are twin threads that run through the history of mankind. And often they intertwine.” –Sophie’s World


Give me also the freedom to usher in 2012 and bid 2011 farewell with the same sentiment.

Personally, I thank God for all the patience He put up this year for me. I know I was stubborn and somehow bits and pieces of that ability is still couch-potatoing in my mind. But I think this is where resolutions come in. Whether it is new year or not, it is inherent in us to resolve to change. If we see so much of evil in the thread, we attempt to change it and look for something good in it. It may take a long time for us to balance the thread; more often than not we stop halfway through and forget these resolutions. However, I think, in a whole, the thread is used in a spinning wheel. It is continuous and going and we still have the ability to pick up again whatever it is we left hanging or we have forgotten.

I was very afraid of the idea of a repetitive mistake before. I remember a high school friend sending a group message which contained a quote saying a problem will keep on coming back unless you’ve cleanly resolved it. For me, it means the ability of a person depends on the number of times problems come back and if the same problems chase you for the nth time, well, let’s just say you might be the problem. Logical, isn’t it? But you see you are not the only factor why problems persist. Conditions may contribute to the plague-like quality of the problem. For example, your insecurities and self-pity continue to haunt you even after you have resolved your issues. The fact that everyone has a boyfriend and you don’t simply obliterates your hard-to-build self-confidence. So you try to get a boyfriend and you break-up and it leads you to a deeper wormhole. Until you learn that maturity requires time and is not to be answered by getting a one-time boyfriend. Okay so I’m sounding like a priestess or some kind of a guidance counselor but the point is, a repetitive problem doesn’t reflect your performance in life. For one, you only have one life and you can never compare your mistakes today to mistakes you had in your former or future life. Nor can you compare it with others because they are different. “And what can life be worth if not the first rehearsal for life is life itself? That is why life is always like a sketch. No, sketch is not quite the word because a sketch is an outline of something, the groundwork for a picture, whereas a sketch that is your life is for nothing, an outline of with no picture.” (Kundera shouting in my head, 1984)
All of this is just to say that I’m all in for the idea of building a resolution. Because even if it is repetitive, even if it is tiring, it is worth the try.

P.S.
Remember the spinning wheel? The seconds between midnight of January 1, 2012 and 11:59 of December 31, 2011 are like intertwined beginnings and endings of a thread and what better way to tie them together than resolutions.

-wellflower

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